Mid-Life Crisis
I'm not getting the whole mid-life part, and the only crisis is that I still want to do things I didn't have the time or funds to do when I was, well not young, but more resilient. I'd like to spend time going to game conventions, comic conventions, board game conventions, auto-shows(well I do that one pretty much yearly). I don't have the time off to do that and when I do it's not something I could just run off and do without feeling bad about it . I've got kids 2 of them, a wife who works as much as I do and 2 dogs who need lot's of attention. I'm not asking , imagining or envisioning a life without all of the aforementioned. The 'fun' in going to those fun places and doing those fun things is lost when I know I'm pushing someone else aside or neglecting something or someone that shouldn't have to understand 'my side' of why I would want to go off on my own . I've heard of people taking that 'me' time and I have taken that me time but in the Venn Diagram of time the Me time is taken from time that does not intersect when my children are awake and should be with me , when my wife is not otherwise occupied and when the dogs are not exercised. Yeah, I wish I could have more time to do less but I don't, what I can do is sleep less, seriously I rule the night except that I'm pushing 40 well I'm pretty much 40 and that means I don't have that endurance to stay up till 3am and go to work 3 hours later like I could when I was in my 20's and 30's. Now my night life is going to be eaten away ,but I have two compensating factors.
One : I've seen it all - you know that crotchety old men aren't crotchety from the begining they just feel they everything around them is a piece of a re-run and not a piece like Yoda VS Count Dooku or John Wayne delivering threats in a western or every Dirty Harry signature one liner, or Captian Kirk telling Kahn "It's coming through now, Khan." I can feel the crotchety-ness seeping into my bones that sense of prescient ennui. 'I know what you're going to say and do and I know where this is going.' Makes watching sitcoms a lot less interesting.
This all means that I'm not in such a rush to do it all over again, again. Each game each movie , each show all has so many elements of something I've seen before. It's take a lot more on the innovation meter to register to me and that happens less and less often.
Two : I've got a crop of kids . Ones who haven't seen thing stuff, ones who the older they get the more they are going to be able to go to comic book conventions, game conventions and other stuff as participants. So I can wait, I will wait , and in the fullness of time I'll get some of my youth back in another way.
Oh yeah, and Three the old they get the more they'll want to distance themselves from their mom and I , which means we'll get more time together.
So there really isn't a midlife crisis , just a shift to stragtegy in the game that is life, and I love a long game.
I'm not getting the whole mid-life part, and the only crisis is that I still want to do things I didn't have the time or funds to do when I was, well not young, but more resilient. I'd like to spend time going to game conventions, comic conventions, board game conventions, auto-shows(well I do that one pretty much yearly). I don't have the time off to do that and when I do it's not something I could just run off and do without feeling bad about it . I've got kids 2 of them, a wife who works as much as I do and 2 dogs who need lot's of attention. I'm not asking , imagining or envisioning a life without all of the aforementioned. The 'fun' in going to those fun places and doing those fun things is lost when I know I'm pushing someone else aside or neglecting something or someone that shouldn't have to understand 'my side' of why I would want to go off on my own . I've heard of people taking that 'me' time and I have taken that me time but in the Venn Diagram of time the Me time is taken from time that does not intersect when my children are awake and should be with me , when my wife is not otherwise occupied and when the dogs are not exercised. Yeah, I wish I could have more time to do less but I don't, what I can do is sleep less, seriously I rule the night except that I'm pushing 40 well I'm pretty much 40 and that means I don't have that endurance to stay up till 3am and go to work 3 hours later like I could when I was in my 20's and 30's. Now my night life is going to be eaten away ,but I have two compensating factors.
One : I've seen it all - you know that crotchety old men aren't crotchety from the begining they just feel they everything around them is a piece of a re-run and not a piece like Yoda VS Count Dooku or John Wayne delivering threats in a western or every Dirty Harry signature one liner, or Captian Kirk telling Kahn "It's coming through now, Khan." I can feel the crotchety-ness seeping into my bones that sense of prescient ennui. 'I know what you're going to say and do and I know where this is going.' Makes watching sitcoms a lot less interesting.
This all means that I'm not in such a rush to do it all over again, again. Each game each movie , each show all has so many elements of something I've seen before. It's take a lot more on the innovation meter to register to me and that happens less and less often.
Two : I've got a crop of kids . Ones who haven't seen thing stuff, ones who the older they get the more they are going to be able to go to comic book conventions, game conventions and other stuff as participants. So I can wait, I will wait , and in the fullness of time I'll get some of my youth back in another way.
Oh yeah, and Three the old they get the more they'll want to distance themselves from their mom and I , which means we'll get more time together.
So there really isn't a midlife crisis , just a shift to stragtegy in the game that is life, and I love a long game.
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